Love and Fights

by Jason Renslow

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All of these tracks were recorded on a digital recorder. There's nothing fancy here, just songwriting and a little guitar playing. All songs were written between August, 2012, and April, 2014.

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released August 3, 2015

All songs written and performed by Jason M. Renslow, All rights reserved.
All photos taken by Jason M. Renslow. Thank you to my cats, Mr. Casual and Knedliky.

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Jason Renslow Eugene, Oregon

singer song writer. Bands: Original Oregon Underground, The Junkyard All-Stars, Piece Corpse, Poisonous Demon Cobra, and International Werewolf Connection.

One song, Come on Over Let's Chant, was selected for the Human Revolution Songs of Freedom Mixtape, Vol 1. Influences include alt country, metal, punk, folk, rap, rock, indie, electronic.
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Track Name: I Wrote You A Letter
I Wrote You A Letter

I want to hold your hand while walking in the moon light
I want to be your man in the darkest of nights
I want to hold you when you get so blue
And I want to love you when the mornin' is new
But, if it's too late, I can understand
You're gonna show me what a country song can mean to a country man

I can say I've been there, I've had some lonely nights
Sometimes I have made choices that I could have made more right
I have looked to the sky and I have seen the rain clouds
I've looked in the mirror and not always been proud

Sometimes loving means leaving and doing what you've got to do
And, when I look back there's no regrettin'
But, some days I'm still in love with you
Sometimes love means you hold on to whatever you've got to hold
And, love means doing you no wrong
I'm gonna need you when I get old

And I want all the best for you more than I want it for myself
At least I got this bottle of whiskey staring at me down from the shelf
The answers I seek are blurred, they don't deal in "yes's" and "no's"
But, I'm here for you any time, this is something I know I know

Sometimes loving means leaving and doing what you've got to do
And, when I look back there's no regrettin'
But, some days I'm still in love with you
Sometimes love means you hold on to whatever you've got to hold
And, love means doing you no wrong
We're gonna need each other when we get old
Track Name: New Guy
New Guy

That new boyfriend of yours, does he feel like me? Does he breathe like me? Does he need like me? Does he see like me?

That new boyfriend of yours, does he hold like me? Does he sleep like me? Does he believe like me? Does he please like me?

I'd swear it's not my thing to disappoint
But, maybe you'd swear that I missed the point
Swear to my face, go and swear to the sky
Swear you don't miss me when you're with the new guy

That new boyfriend of yours, does he know like me? Does he grow like me? Is he free like me? Does he trust like me?

That new boyfriend of yours, does he love like me? Does he touch like me? Does he give like me? Does he demand like me?

I'd swear it's not my thing to disappoint
But, maybe you'd swear that I missed the point
Swear to my face, go and swear to the sky
Swear you don't miss me when you're with the new guy

That new boyfriend of yours, does he bleed like me? Does he cheat like me? Has he greed like me? Will he leave like I left you?
Track Name: Picture In A Picture Frame
Picture In A Picture Frame

I might have to wait until next time
I might have to wait until my next life
I know I'll get along just fine
I might have to suffer a little, go on into the night

Before you go, before you leave
Please, oh won't you, promise me one thing
Before you decide to deceive, before you take it now, what you need
Please won't you fall in love one time with me

I look at all that you resemble
Look at all we could become
At the edge I'll look down and tremble
Where we're going and where we've come from

Before you go, before you leave
Please, oh won't you, promise me one thing
Before you decide to deceive, before you take it now, what you need
Please won't you fall in love one time with me

I keep that one time picture
on my shelf in a picture frame
I'll say "no" when asked if I miss her
Somehow I know I just have myself to blame

Before you go, before you leave
Please, oh won't you, promise me one thing
Before you decide to deceive, before you take it now, what you need
Please won't you fall in love one time with me
Track Name: L & F
L & F

Love and fights...
when you love someone, but still decide to go on fighting
when you love someone, but still can't agree on what's the right thing
when you can't give in because of something you gotta hold on to
when you keep on fighting even though you really don't want to

Loving and fighting...
becomes part of routine
becomes a normal thing
a privilege or a right? Can you live with loving and fighting every night?

Love and fights...
the belief that no matter what you'll be more right
you know you'll never give in, but your partner might
doing your best to defend your comfort zone
when nothing is more important than the ego

Loving and fighting...
is part of who I am
as much as I can stand
collection of my wounds
may end up as my doom
Track Name: Sometime Later
Sometime Later

How did you get so jaded? How did you lose your shine?
Did the drinking finally catch up? Or, was it just the passing of time?

Because the woman that you were
used to be everything to me
and, now I find that so hard to believe
The woman that you were
used to be everything I could need
whatever happened to that woman I knew who was free?

You used to tell me that you had dreams, used to think you were something
But now those days are gone it seems and it all just amounts to nothing

Because the woman that you were
used to be everything to me
and, now I find that so hard to believe
The woman that you were
used to be everything I could need
whatever happened to that woman I knew who was free?

Sometimes the lights go down
It seems there's nothing to be done
But, when the lights go down
It's a chance to turn around
So, the next time we see each other
Is there a chance I'll see you doing better?

Because the woman that you were
used to be everything to me
and, now I find that so hard to believe
The woman that you were
used to be everything I could need
whatever happened to that woman I knew who was free?
Track Name: I Have A House
I Have A House

This world is gray
Sometimes I have more debts than I could ever pay
But, there are so many shades
We could go, we could run away

I have a house, that steals away my kisses
I have a girl, who says I fill her wishes
I have a woman, who tries to tell me what to do
Then, darlin'... I have you

I see an end disaster, but it's hard to know what you're trying to capture
I hope you get what you're after, hope you figure out for you what really matters

I have a house, that steals away my kisses
I have a girl, who says I fill her wishes
I have a woman, who tries to tell me what to do
Then darlin'... I have you

The luck of the draw is never enough
The road that we walk is paved with our tears
Decisions that we make, they will carry us on and home again
For you I would do anything, find rules to bend

All the gold in the end, well it won't amount to anything
But, the hearts that we touch build a life that's worth living
All the gold in the end, well it won't amount to anything
But, the hearts that we touch build a life that's worth living
Track Name: Talk Loud Walk Proud
Talk Loud Walk Proud

Sometimes I get to wondering how a girl like you got so lucky
To be here in the here and now with me as your man

Sometimes I got to sum it up, sometimes I don't really got the words
So I get out a sweet guitar song and sometimes it ain't in me, babe

It's a G n' R kinda thing
When the forces of good and evil, they collide
Something emerges from deep inside
Gotta live it up, one helluva ride

Blues get on my mind some nights, do what I can to get stuff right
Tonight some things gone leave me burned
what I learn, what I second guess

It's a G n' R kinda thing
When the forces of good and evil, they collide
Something emerges from deep inside
Gotta live it up, like you don't have to try
Gotta live it up, like tomorrow you're gonna die
Gotta live it up
Track Name: Everlasting Glow
Everlasting Glow

Can I be in the backdrop of all your life I've got left to live?
This may seem like a lot to ask, but I think I've got a lot to give

And I want to share everything that I know with you
And I want to go everywhere that I go with you
And, I want you to know that I believe in you
You're everything I could want in a woman so true

Can I be in the car riding shotgun in the sun?
An open road where we can go, we're together now so we have won

And I want to share everything that I know with you
And I want to go everywhere that I go with you
And, I want you to know that I believe in you
You're everything I could want in a woman so true

Oh the years, they have let me know that I should never let you go
Oh the years, they have let me know that I should never let you go

And I want you to know that I can see an everlasting glow
Track Name: The Crash And The Burn
The Crash And The Burn

First and foremost, let me start by saying
that your happiness means everything to me
And secondly, I'd like to follow up
And let you know that you mean everything

So, while the rest of the world goes a driftin' on back and forth
I get sad and it's hard now to say why
'cause it seems to reach your satisfaction
you need to speculate on what we would be
If our world was to crash and burn
if our world was to die

Third on my mind, I'm thinking all the time
I want to express you you what it is that I feel in my heart
Fourth on my mind, actually in no right order
The more I think about us, well, I just don't want to be apart

So, while the rest of the world goes a driftin' on back and forth
I get sad and it's hard now to say why
'cause it seems to reach your satisfaction
you need to speculate on what we would be
If our world was to crash and burn
if our world was to die
Track Name: Summer Song 2013
Summer Song 2013 (Damn you, Jason... it's been a bastard)

Sometimes the taste of a cigarette is a reminder to me of being young
Of parking lots and star lit nights, and sometimes it reminds me of you
So many secrets, I keep too locked away
Too many projects, I've left undone
So many places, I haven't been to yet
So much I've got left to do

So one more night dark and out on my porch
A glass of wine to calm the nerves
All these memories that used to be
What's a phone call away? What do I deserve?
What do I want to learn? What can I let go?
What's the point anyway? The point anyway
How about I sing this song?
How about I sing this song

Hear the sirens ring, somebody's going through shit
somebody not too far away is gonna fail tonight
And, if that's not enough to break your heart
There's too many folks that are full of hate
But, I still wanna be brave, I want to keep my cool
I want to listen to you, I wanna get stuff right
To speak from my heart, even days when it's hard
Awake from the dream and I want to create
Track Name: Benefit Of The Doubt
Benefit Of The Doubt

It was a late night, you didn't seem yourself
Something wasn't right, got some fires to squelch
Talking to me, and I'm seeming distant
Not what you need, you're looking for something different

I'm trying to give you the benefit of the doubt
If you wanna pick a fight, I'll try to find another route
I guess these are the demons I was informed about

On a stormy day, I was just in the way
The look on your face said that you're not okay
Fighting a war that comes from your core
No matter how we fight, no way to even the score

I'm trying to give you the benefit of the doubt
If you wanna pick a fight, I'll try to find another route
I guess these are the demons I was informed about

Don't know why you might go and turn tonight into a battleground
go round for round
you wanna explode
tear apart this town
Don't know why you might go and turn tonight something upside down
run us into the ground
You wanna explode
tear apart this town

I'm trying to give you the benefit of the doubt
If you wanna pick a fight, I'll try to find another route
I guess these are the demons I was informed about

I guess these are the demons you were talking about
Track Name: Everlasting Low
Everlasting Low

I'm gonna write a song about the ways of the world
About my broken heart and how I lost a girl
I'm gonna write a song, play it when I'm gone
Play it for the sad folks, play it all day long

I'm gonna write a song about all I got going on
Sometimes it's hard to hold on, sometimes it's hard to belong
The song is the song, if you want to sing along
Sing it for the sad folks who tried, but got it wrong

Oh the world, it has let me know
That I should never let you go

That I should never let you go
Track Name: Day After Day
Day After Day

Day after day I hope and I pray
that the words that you say are not to push me away
Oh, day after day, day after day, day after day, day after day

Day after day there's a price that I pay
for the words that you say and the choices I've made
Oh, day after day, day after day, day after day, day after day

All the girls on the street, they look at me, I feel like I'm going crazy
All the girls that I meet, say to cheat, and my mind's going hazy
So, baby, day after day after day I say that I'm going crazy
Yea, baby, day after day after day what'cha say I'm crazy
Track Name: Out Of The Past
Out Of The Past

I saw your eyes and then I couldn't forget it
You touched my hand, you know that I wanted it
I wanted it

Tell me something to take me away
Start something new in a whole new place
Tell me something, 'cause I don't know what to say
Close my eyes and I just see your face

Pretty girl
what you do to me
Pretty world
what do you want me to be?

A thousand things that I won't say to you
A loss for words and I don't know what to do
what to do

In the room, can be a different man
In front of you I'm doing all that I can
all I can
Track Name: Loser (yup!)
Loser (yup!)

Well, I know that I'm a loser
And, I know you could do better
I know that I'm a bum
And, I know that I'm not the one

But, damn it girl. Damn it, I love you
Yes, I love you. I love you, I love you. Yes, I love you.

Well, I know that I've got problems
And, I know that you don't need 'em
And, I know you don't need fixen'
And, I know you gotta get your kicks in

But, damn it girl. Damn it, I love you
Yes, I love you. I love you, I love you. Yes, I love you.

Every time we fall apart
I am ready to make a fresh start
And, every time we fail so hard
Then we fail together, we sail together

Because, damn it girl. Damn it, I love you
Yes, I love you. I love you, I love you. Yes, I love you.
Track Name: Complicated Heart
Complicated Heart

Rain begins to fall, another day is gone
And another night without you in my arms
You were lonely on the phone, has my voice lost it's charm?
You're talking about your day, but nobody's home

I know it's hard, but, we've come this far
And, I'm trying to navigate this complicated heart
I know you care and want to be there
But, I'm trying to figure out this complicated heart
For a start, before we fall apart

Coffee and more beer, distractions from my fears
I know we're not what you'd imagined we'd become
We have got a love, but is it gonna be enough?
Or, do the burdens become too much to forgive?

Yes, it's hard, but, here we are
And, I can see you're trying to figure out a complicated heart
Oh, yes you care, but, this ain't fair
But, we can try to figure out this complicated heart
For a start, before we fall apart

What do you like? What do you love?
When can you say you've had enough?
Will we fight tonight? Or, try to get it right?
When does the hope become out of sight?

I know it's hard, but, we've come this far
And, I'm trying to navigate this complicated heart
I know you care and want to be there
But, I'm trying to figure out this complicated heart
For a start